Gods I forgot what a major emotional episode does to my body. I feel like I’ve been hit by a truck. Ugh.
I’m going to be breaking up my posts like this for the near future. Writing out one daily post is apparently very daunting for my brain so in an effort to post more regularly, I am trying this. Kinda like bullet journaling.
Arthritis isn’t too bad. I thank Plaquenil (Hydroxychloroquine) for that. I started back on a month before my daughter was born, it was supposed to be two months but she decided to show up a month early. I had a second c-section which did nothing good for the pain in my hips. Severe pain at least once a week. Moderate to heavy pain three to four days a week, mild to moderate pain daily. Occasion instances of the pain shooting down to include my knee. Some ligament related pain in lower abdominal area. I can move around for about fifteen minutes before the “ground up glass” feeling starts in my hip. It generally the right, occasionally the left or both hurt, more often then not it is the right side. This effects my sleep and mobility. Right ankle and foot flaring up about once a month. Some swelling in hands. Having real trouble twisting things with my right hand (door handles, water taps, bottle caps, jars, etc). Walking up and down the stairs is quite painful. My jaw has been very painful at times ane very sensitive to stress and petetative mivemwnts. Hips and jaw are the main complaints with arthritis.
A new year and my usual “resolution” to write more often. We’ll see how it goes this this time.
I’m trying to be more accurate with my pain scale. 1 being negligible pain and 10 being bed ridden. Well as bed ridden as I can be with two kids. My daughter decided to show up four weeks early on November 25th, 2016. Outside of some issues regulating her blood sugar in the first 24 hours and 4 day stay in the hospital for jaundice treatment she is good and healthy. She was 6lbs 7oz, only 8oz lighter then her brother but seems so much smaller. Breast feeding is going really well, WAY better then it went with my son, which is doing my mental state some good. We’ve had A LOT of out of the ordinary weather, a lot of arctic outflow reaching is and giving us a good amount of snow. We did our best not to overdo it with visits over the holidays and are trying not to overdo the newborn visits as well. Folks can come here if they want to see her. I’ve been feeling really awful the last few days, my pain levels are down at least. It’s a combination of a lot of factors, taking care of a newborn and a four year old adjusting to a newborn, holiday stress (positive and negative stress), weather patterns, eating a whole bunch of crunchy food that seriously pissed off my jaw(arthritis and TMJ). I’m utterly exhausted, easily irritated. My body has a “pain pulse”, pain pulses through my joints and muscles like a heart beat. My reproductive psychiatrist is confident I am not showing signs of Post Partem Depression but we need to make sure I’m okay. She reccomends better self care, counseling, and if needed I can bump my Paxil up from 40mg a day to 50mg. I’m seriously considering bumping it up today. I’m doing a bit better with self care. We have dinner at my parents later, which as much as I don’t want to leave the house it will be nice to see them and not have to make dinner. There will also be presents which is fun. I’m hoping my feeling awful isn’t the start of the post pregnancy flare up. I was hoping that awfulness would wait until the three month mark like it did with my son. I’m hoping to do some posts this year that aren’t just my daily log. We’ll see what I can come up with.
Pain levels have been around the 12-14 level for three days. Can’t afford NOT to work. I REALLY need to get school organized. I’ve been on the verge of tears for three days. My New Years resolution to quit while ahead and stop smoking after about a week has failed. I’m still only smoking four or five a day, which compared to my previous level of AT LEAST a pack is pretty good. I know in the long run it’s not helping but it’s that or I literally break things, and lose my shit. Like hysterics. I have a job to go to, a family(myself included) to take care of, I don’t have the luxery of losing my shit right now. Although I’m sure it’s not helping in the trying to conceive department. Speaking of work, off I go. Much love. 💜
I’ve been falling dreadfully behind on taking my supplements. After many months of not taking anything outside of prescribed medication, I had been trying to get back into the habit of it. It’s of particular importance now that I am off ALL medication outside of daily Tylenol 3’s and Cyclobenzaprine.
- Multivitamin; women’s maternity variety for the extra folic acid and because we are trying for another child.
- Fish Oil
- Antioxidant(it’s not a regular supplement, it came with some of the others)
- Turmeric and Curcumin
The turmeric combo I just bought today, so it may be some time before I notice anything.
After my hefty morning dose of medicine I curled up on the couch and snuggled with the little man, the Big Man was sitting close by. The bedroom probably would have been better but I’ve barely seen the menfolk after working 12 days straight. After an hour or so I got up and ate something and felt somewhat better, things were down to a dull roar, so about a 10. Took one T3 in the late afternoon, will be taking another plus Naproxen and Cyclobenzaprine to keep on to of things. I know where I slipped up, well outside of agreeing to work that many days consecutively anyways. Timing is everything when it comes to pain, particularly inflammatory pain. It’s like a wildfire. Without containment it will rage through everything. I will be setting up a rotating schedule for my Naproxen so I don’t wait so many days in between courses. Three days on, four to five days off should get me through Winter. A T3 at morning, noon, and night, which I think works out to five hours between doses. Cyclobenzaprine will be taken at bedtime as currently prescribed, as much as possible. I used this drug before I was even pregnant with the little man so I know the instructions for use with Fibromyalgia. If needed I can take one or two more over the day,five or six hours apart. I’d like to avoid that, hence the rotating Naproxen schedule and T3 phone alarm reminders.
Note: I wanted to write more but sleep was more important.
It’s a rare occasion when I hit this high on the pain scale. I’ve taken all possible medications:
- 1.5 Tylenol 3 tablets
- 1 500mg Naproxen tablet
- 1 Cyclobenzaprine tablet
- Smoking marijuana (w/ bong)
It’s all mostly kicked in. I am a slow machine. Time for a nap already.