Interstitial Cystitis 

Written the night of April 15th, 2015

I’ve been experimenting with coffee again…well it’s not full on coffee, it’s instant coffee and chicory. Tasty stuff! I’m not sure if it’s the coffee, the candy or possibly the dye in my Paxil(they look like pretty pink pillows) but something has triggered my Interstitial Cystitis. It’s been, literally, years since it has bothered me to this degree. I’ll be changing my diet accordingly and hope I don’t have to see a urologist again.

Mini Post -BLARG!

Starting to feel a little sketchy…day four(or is it five?)…without Paxil because my new doctor will not refill it over the fax like my previous one did. I understand with Lyrica(which I’m happy to report I am managing relatively well without) but this is a psych med. Yes let’s deny the patient their brain medication, that’s a great idea. I REALLY hope I can get into the walk in clinic today.

Butterfly Rash?

This rash isn’t new but it is the worst I’ve seen it. Was working in the sun the last few days so I’m wondering if it’s the UV sensitivity from the Hydroxychloroquine(Plaquenil) or if it’s butterfly rash. I have Undiferentiated Connective Tissue Disease, which if put very simply is Lupus before there are enough recognizable symptoms to officially call it Lupus. Such is the curse of crossover symptoms! You can see how pleased I am about this. The annoying thing is that it was sunny for a couple days, then overcast and today is rain; You’d figure if it was the photosensitivity that the sunny days would have been worse.

Goals for 2015 – After Narcissistic Abuse


Saving for later perusal.

Originally posted on After Narcissistic Abuse:

There’s no time like the new year to create a NEW YOU after narcissistic abuse.  

in 2015 I will

With all the confusion and depression a thing of the past, we’ve got so much time and bandwidth available to us, we can have trouble knowing where to start setting goals or to decide what it is we truly want. Finally, many of us haven’t believed ourselves worthy of focus and have thus always put our desires last to everyone else in our lives; especially narcissists.

Exercise 1 

Let’s take a look at the areas of our lives we can explore when considering goals pertinent to our abusive experiences with a narcissist:

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Physical health
Personal development


What areas above have suffered?
What areas have you neglected in order to take care of others but need to focus on now?
What area causes you the most stress and upset?


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Eye Twitch = Stress

I get this twitch in my eyelid when I’m stressed, sometimes both eyelids. It drives me bonkers. The weather is kicking my butt right now and that coupled with married life with a toddler and the usual daily struggles of life and things get a little hairy. Yuletide is coming as well, which unfortunately is quite stressful for me. Blarg!