August 19th 2015

Long and hot day. Three walks plus second hand store perusing for work supplies with my boss. My hips are the main issue the last few days. Regardless of medication they hurt, that broken glass feeling. Been taking three T3’s per day. Abscessed tooth is responding well to amoxicillin, still can’t chew on that side. The other side is starting to hurt from over use, need to make some soft foods to eat. The heat is still high, along with the humidity, it’s exhausting. BUT…winter is coming. *wink* Some of it is deadfall from the drought but not nearly all of it though.

 

August 17th 2015-MorningĀ 

Obviously I wrote this a few days ago. I meant to do an evening post as well but was too tired.
I hurt constantly and enough the I can’t just push it to the back of my mind. It’s a constant companion, sitting on my shoulder, whispering in my ear. It’s exhausting. I find I am very short tempered and prone to yelling. The pain doesn’t just sit in my joints, it now travels through my veins. I know once I get moving some of it will ease. It’s a temporary relief, once I sit down again for a bit the muscles aches will return once I start moving again. Part of my exhaustion is due to lack of fuel, my appetite is pretty non existent. I do get hungry but I’m usually too lethargic(tired,sore,etc) to get up or out and not willing to stop to eat. While the heat and my chronic illnesses do most of the damage to my eating habits, a lot of it is lack of self care. I’m particularly bad with self care the worse I feel. If I stop to acknowledge how I feel, I have to accept how awful I actually feel; To do proper self care would be to go home and lay down for a few days. 

Fire

My bones are on fire. The heat and pain from them radiate out into my muscles. The weather is changing. I also pushed myself too hard on my bike this week. It’s just so liberating. It gives me a sense of freedom. Yes it does cause pain but everything does really. It’s better in the long run for my body anyways. Exercise and building muscle tone helps support my joints and keep them moving. There is WAY less impact on my joints since I’m not plodding along on the concrete. Hills are nasty, I get off and walk most of them. 

I saw the doctor regarding the Cyst of Doom; Because it is a recurring issue surgery isn’t something that will help. I have to get X-rays done to make sure the joint is doing okay. Besides that I just brace it and deal with it, which could be years.

My hubby is going to fill my prescriptions today for T3’s and antibiotics for an abscessed tooth. And it’s Friday. Technically I have walks to do on the weekend but the pup lives in the same complex am I and he’s 12 and doesn’t need a crazy fast walk or anything.

August 4th 2015

The majority of the medications I have stopped are now clear of my system. We’ve just past the three month half-life mark of Plaquenil. From what I’ve read, the remaining 50% will now leave my body at an exponential rate. My mind is too tired to go looking for the specifics. 

I HURT. I ache. My joints have a hot demonic pulse; Filled with broken glass. Once I get moving, with a brace on each ankle and my left wrist(sometimes the rift too), I feel a smudge better. As soon as I sit down though it’s just a matter of time before the full brunt of the pain returns. I’m taking Tylenol Arthritis, I need to get to the doctor and get my Tylenol 3’s refilled. The acetemetophen dulls the pain but barely touches it. Basically makes it so I don’t cry off and on throughout the day. The opiates takes a bigger bite out of it.

The braces on my ankles I wear for preventative measures mostly. They are just elastic material. Decent quality. My right ankle is still weak from the really bad sprain months back. My left will start to hurt constantly if I don’t wear the brace on that side. I take them off when I get home. If I wear one on my right wrist it’s the same sort of bandage.

My left wrist is another matter altogether. I pulled out “the big guns” about a week ago. It is an immobilizing brace. It has metal plates in it, for Hermes sake! The Cyst of Doom is being REALLY pissy though so I look kind of bionic at the moment. 

   
 
I can’t even take this one off at home. I keep it on until bedtime. I also think the cyst has gotten bigger.

   
   
My Fibro trigger points are VERY sensitive right now. I feel pretty down about it because my three year old son gets excited and jumps on me or pokes at me and I wince and gasp and yelp and it scares it. :( 

Fuck you craptastic body.

Prayer Request

For those of you inclined to prayer, any and all energies that can be spared for my Mother would be appreciated. She went for a mammogram yesterday, was called today and was told she needs to go back for more tests and to see a specialist. They have not said if it is cancer of not. I am concerned because she has had pre-cancerous/cancerous cells removed twice already. She is already ill with Arthritis, Fibromyalgia and Spinal Stinosis, among a handful of others. She’s 59 years old. I’m trying really hard not to freak out about this. Instead I will pray.